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writing conclusions is hard

note while i edit this: i understand the irony in this piece

As I've been writing more and more, it's come to me that my writing is pretty amateur-ish. Not that that's a bad thing overall (I'm hardly ever going to go professional, after all) but there are times where I find I can't quite find the best way to word what I want to get across.

I can ramble about certain topics on and on, but fail to get a meaningful conclusion across. It's quite easy to type and type, but when it comes to connecting, I feel like I fall back on vibes and thoughts instead of ending on a strong note.

Personally, I feel like I've always lacked confidence in my writing (to the point that it was pointed out that I should stop using 'maybe' at work), but I can't tell if that reflects on me personally or not.

I'm sure this isn't an uncommon problem. Even major fiction authors who've successfully published best-sellers can crash and burn, for varying reasons. Maybe I should've paid more attention during my english classes in high school.

Does this happen because I'm just meandering? Does it show hesitancy in what I want to say? In writing, I've found I start with a thought, a discussion of sorts almost. Maybe because I'm newer to this, it becomes difficult to commit.

Anyways, I'm going to end this here. Hopefully I can come back to this piece in a year and reflect on my improvement!

#scratchpad